Just felt like contributing to the bullshit Tumblr self harm tags.
i am genuinely paranoid that everyone secretly hates me and thinks i am really annoying and ugly and is pretending to be my friend and it’s all part of some big joke
I have an official first appointment with my old therapist Monday. I want to celebrate by not eating. Everyday I say this is the day I will stop eating.
Well. I really want today to be the day. After seeing that picture on my boyfriends phone I realize what a piece of shit I am.
I am looking for help. If anyone could please just inbox me and help me in any way.
I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be a fat piece of shit anymore Someone please help.
I am garbage.
See the picture? Pretty cool cosplay of Harely Quinn, huh? I only know about this picture because it is the background on my boyfriends phone. This is the first time I have seen a picture of a woman other than me on his phone.
She is gorgeous. Skinny. Large breasted. Elegant. And interested in the Batman story line.
I am fat. I had go up a uniform size at work. My clothes don’t fit. I’m stupid. Ugly. Clumsy. Worthless. Unlikeable. And interested in the Batman story line.
Last night I got drunk and took Tylenol pm. I started messaging all my brothers because I miss them… One of them told me he didn’t want to talk to me for various reasons, that we don’t even know each other because we didn’t grow together.
My boyfriend doesn’t want me. My family doesn’t want. Sometimes I think my dog doesn’t even like me…
… Why is my fat ass even here? Taking up space in an overpopulated world. Being disgusting. Being Large.
I hope one day I get too drunk and take one too many pills. Then maybe for once I would have done something right.
-She has a prettier face
-She knows all of his favorite music
-She has longer hair
Edit : He doesn’t deny the fact that she’s skinnier
This utterly broke me. In such a heartbreaking, beautiful way. I have not cried or felt so utterly human than I did after hearing this for the first time.
I do not reblog positive, supportive, and hopeful things on this blog. This blog is here I come to die.
But this… Is worth it. She is worth it. You are worth it.
“Being alive is literally the best opportunity you could ever have… There is a way out of depression… Just remember that you are perfect, and you are wonderful, and that someone out there loves you so much…
Life is wonderful,
Cut cake, not wrists”
Stupidest fucking shit I’ve seen.